When I was younger someone asked me, “Do you ever miss or wish you could run, or any of the other things I can’t do? I didn’t hesitate. I said, “No, I don’t. She said, why not? My response was, “How do you miss something you have never experienced or done? That may seem like a strange response for a young preteen disabled girl to give someone, but it is the truth. One of the realities of being born with Cerebral Palsy is I have never known another life.
Hold on to your hat, if you thought my previous response was strange. Looking back, I believe that from a young age God was preparing me for the life He had set before me. You see, I truly believe that God has a plan for each of us (Jeremiah 29:11). He knew that this journey was not going to be easy. However, it would be extremely easy for me to be angry or bitter about all the “normal” activities I have “missed out” on because of the path God chose for me.
If I’m honest, there are times when I get frustrated by some of the complications of being born with Cerebral Palsy. For example, I would love to be able to get in a car and drive myself somewhere. Then God reminds me of the amazing adventures I have had with amazing people all because I needed to go somewhere or something, I would not trade them for anything.
Another reason I am sure God had this unique journey for me is He has always provided for me. Not only do I have an awesome God given family! I have an amazing community/church family that supports my family and me as we walk this road called life together.
I can’t thank God enough for all that He done for me. No, this is not the path I would have chosen for myself at all… I thank God though, that while this road can be frustrating at times, He helps me not stay there. It reminds me of what one of aides used to tell me when I would get frustrated. She would say, “This too shall pass”. There is so much truth in that simple statement. No matter what you are going through right now, it won’t last forever.
I absolutely love this verse….
It reminds me again, that while I may not be able to everything other people can, I can make a choice. I can choose to:
- focus on my own lack of ability while staying frustrated and stuck
- Allow God to use the abilities He has specifically given me while He fills in the gaps (2 Cor. 12:9).
Tonight I choose to allow God to use all that He has given me. By choosing to live in the now, I am embracing this life with all it bumps and bruises knowing that God has been/will be there with me every step of the way (Deuteronomy 31:6).
Friend, I pray for you as you read this post. I pray that God will be close to you. That He and reminds you that no matter what you are going through you never face it alone. You will hold on to the truth that this too will pass. That as each of us as we face times of uncertainty that you have a plan Father and will provide for our every need. In Jesus name, Amen.